Fat Prison

Monday, August 28, 2017 I injured my back 8 days ago, went to Urgent Care last Thursday and after x-rays, etc., they couldn't determine what the problem was and prescribed a muscle relaxant and pain medication.  It is now four days later and I have maybe a 10% improvement.  The pain is terrible.  The only good thing to come out of it is that I have completely lost my appetite!  I forced myself to make a smoothie this afternoon and that is probably all I will have today.  Just getting dressed and going to work this morning was so painful.

Monday, August 21, 2017 Starting week two!  No problem over the weekend.  I had my protein smoothie for breakfast both days, and veggie burgers for lunch.  For dinner I had two eggs over two slices of 40 calorie bread for a 240 calorie meal, just slightly more than the smoothie. This week at work will be challenging with a meeting every day that involves either a breakfast or lunch, or both.  I will need to think ahead so I can stick with my plan with as little modification as possible.

Friday, 08/18/2017 Day 5 and no problems all week.  I did walk after work yesterday, 1.3 miles in 25 minutes.  I am planning to walk after work again today.  I am a little nervous about the weekend; being around the house and therefore around food all weekend, but hoping that I will be able to continue as I have been and start my second week strong on Monday!

Thursday, 08/17/2017 Today is my fourth day, and everything is going well.  I have eaten the same thing each day:  Protein smoothie for breakfast, 2 veggie patties for lunch, protein smoothie in the afternoon, and one bag of riced cauliflower for dinner.  So around 800 calories per day.  I am trying to stay under 1000 calories per day, so doing well there and definitely getting plenty of protein.  Today I feel like I have more energy and may go for a walk after work!

08/16/2017 I have been fat for as long as I can remember.  Even before kindergarten.  Always the fat girl with the pretty face. The first diet I ever went on was in 6th grade.  My mother joined weight watchers, even though she had very little weight to lose.  I think she joined to help me.  She prepared all my food and all I had to do was eat it.  I got down to a normal weight.  I don't know what happened that I gained it all back, but that started my life of dieting.  Being fat in elementary school, junior high school, high school and college is not an experience I would wish on anyone.  The comments are intentional and hateful.  The comments have nothing to do with what kind of person you are.  It doesn't matter - you are fat and that's all they see. In 1991 at age 30 I became pregnant with my son.  I weighed around 320 at that time.  The delivery was difficult due to my weight, but thankfully I delivered a healthy...